My mom is coming to visit me!!!!!!!!!! woo-hoo~ man I'm so excited she couldn't come here in a better time. I'm just feeling a little depressed right now actually I've been in this deep funk for almost a month now, call it PMS call it the winter blues but I'm not feeling any better. My roommate calls it my isolation mood. There are days that I would just stare in front of the TV and would burst into tears for no apparent reason or I would just lie on my bed and just think about the reasons why being alone sucks. Sometimes being strong can be a weakness, I am guilty of that. I don't like asking people for help, I don't want people to see me cry , I don't want people to know what I feel, I want them to see me as someone who is independent and strong willed, I want them to take the first step, I want them to make the first move. I think I'm strong but I'm not I'm a very very weak person I'm an eighty year old woman trapped in a 21 year old's body

Another day another dollar, I'm so bored here at work our network is acting up that's why I can't do any work (hehehe excuses excuses)..There's a scarlet fever outbreak here in our office apparently a co-worker of mine contracted it when he went to Indonesia, he looked like crap when he was sick and the sad thing was he was still working that is why all of us were exposed to it and so far there are around 4 people who are sick right now and frankly i'm kinda feeling woozy right now which i presume is not a good sign...hmmm..nothing to report except that..better take my vitamins!

Anywayse it's October already and the leaves are starting to fall, time sure flies and sometimes i'm scared that one day I would wake up and I would still be doing the same stuff I'm doing right now except that I'll be old and wrinkly. It's been a busy month for me I mean September was a blur,went to chicago, watched the Weezer conert (which was awesome btw), I have a new niece named Kylie who looks adorable. I'll be taking my vacation in march so that I could take advantage of the one month allowed to us employees and I can't wait it's been almost two years since I've been home and I'm really excited the once so familiar sights and sounds are such a distant memory that I have to replay them over and over again at night so that I won't forget. *I wish I was homewardbound*

Anywayse it's October already and the leaves are starting to fall, time sure flies and sometimes i'm scared that one day I would wake up and I would still be doing the same stuff I'm doing right now except that I'll be old and wrinkly. It's been a busy month for me I mean September was a blur,went to chicago, watched the Weezer conert (which was awesome btw), I have a new niece named Kylie who looks adorable. I'll be taking my vacation in march so that I could take advantage of the one month allowed to us employees and I can't wait it's been almost two years since I've been home and I'm really excited the once so familiar sights and sounds are such a distant memory that I have to replay them over and over again at night so that I won't forget. *I wish I was homewardbound*