This is what gets me through the day

Saturday, October 12, 2002

Saturday night and I'm at home eating ramen noodles, is that how it's supposed to be? I'm 22 years old and living away from home in a foreign country you should think that I'm living a pagan lifestyle, party all night and sleep all day but it's the exact opposite I'm usually asleep at 11 pm and wake at 9 to watch my cartoons I'm regressing I could relate more to 9 year olds than to 22 year olds, at least with the kiddies I'm cool, because I could talk about Sponge Bob Squarepants and Dexter's Laboratory without feeling silly I couldtotally relate with them. On the other hand when I'm with people my age I can be a total dork, case in point: earlier this evening while wating for the elevator, my crush from 5th floor was there, he was just standing there and I couldn't even talk properly to my roomie I was all like "duh..err..hehehe" I was blushing and he wasn't even talking to me sad...I couldn't look him straight in the eye, opportunity knocked and I didn't have the guts to grab it...totally ignored it,

My gosh it's the end of September already and I'm planning to go home again in January so that's like in 3 months! I haven't filed my vacation yet I do hope that they will let me have it, I mean I haven't missed work and I've been coming in on time and I usually leave the office after 5 so basically I've been a pretty good employee (well except for the whole long distance thing hehehehe). So yey! I'm pretty excited, Vans is also going home so I'm sure we're gonna have a blast, the gang is complete again, the last time we were all together was senior year in college and those were such fun times. In October I will start my computer classes at the it will be on the 10th, I can't wait I haven't been in a classroom for two years so I'm all psyched. Basically, I decided to do it because I figured might as well grab the opportunity, I don't really use my brain at work and when I go home I usually plop down in front of the telly and zone out, I might as well zone out in a classroom...

I'm still buzzing from the John Mayer concert, it was cool to finally see him play live and I don't care if most of the audience were younger than me I enjoyed it and the songs really hits home.

I just had chinese food and now I'm ready to take a nap. This is going to be a long day. I used to love summers, back when I had nothing to do all day but watch TV. Summer isn't really summer once you're done with school, it's just another season, like fall or spring. Just wanted to get that off my chest...back to work

I've come to a realization, I was comforting a friend of mine who was quite frustrated about her life. She tried to enroll in a local community college, but was discouraged when she saw how much it was per unit, since she lives in DC she is not qualified for in-state tuition, she is left with two possible solutions it's either she moves back to Virginia or take fewer units to alleviate the cost. If she does decides to move back to VA there is really no turning back for her, she has to look for a new place even buy a car, however if she takes some classes and suddenly realize that it was not meant for her (going back to school that is) it will be a waste of money. I feel really bad for her, it was a big step, taking control of your life, but it wasn't meant to be, maybe there are better and bigger opportunities for her, it really depends on how you look at it really it all comes down to the half-empty half-full way of thinking. I've talked to her about it and tried to make the glass half-full, I told her that there are a lot of things that we could still do, and probably going back to school will tie us down from doing it. I mean I still dream of travelling to far away places, and if I go back to school all my finances will be directed to paying my tuition, books and housing. I've figured that I will do it next year while I'm still single and still have month long paid vacations, that I should enjoy life and not think about monetary matters since I am only 22 and there are a lot more important things in life than money. It's funny how priorities shift all of a sudden, how your perspectives change just by one incident that happened to you indirectly. For the first time in two years, I see a glass that is half full.

Well all the moving stuff is done, I'm officially an urbanite (hahaha that's what my ex-roomie calls me now) So now I'm getting used to my new routine, which is very relaxed, I leave the apartment at 8:20 and it takes me about 20 minutes to get to the train station, I get to the office before 9 check my emails and start working. The only thing I hate in these long walks to the metro is the heat, by the time I reach the office I'm all sweaty and sticky (not a good way to start the day), I could handle the heat but the humidity just kills me (literally and figuratively lol). Speaking of painful deaths, I feel like I'm wasting away at the office, I am not challenged by my job, however, I can't just quit especially with the stock market situation here in the states, and there is also the thing called my visa. So I'm afraid I'm stuck here until a really good opportunity pops up (anybody interested in rescuing me?) When I was a kid I thought that being adult is very simple, finish school, find a job, get married, have kids,retire but once I got here it's more like pray to God that you pass college, find a job, find a job, find a job, work, work, work I guess your age is directly proportional to the frustrations you had/will encounter, being an adult is so overrated.

Been busy, busy with work which is good because my life makes sense again! *sarcasm*, busy with all the moving and packing, busy with unpacking, busy as a bumble bee. My cousin's wedding is tomorrow and I feel bad about missing it. Everybody went home to the Philippines except for me, I just don't have the money for plane fare and the timing isn't right (it's always about timing), since I just got back from vacation and also my lease ends this month, so even if I'm there my mind will still be thinking about rent and bills. The weather here in the east coast is f--ed up, one minute it's bright and sunny, the next minute it's all cloudy, rainy and muggy. I don't know what to write in this online blogger thing, just reading other people's blogs makes me rethink about the decision of getting one. Most blogs that I read are witty and funny, I guess I'm just trying too hard. Oh well if there are any people (maybe 0ne or two of you) reading this blog, please bear with me I'm new to this, feedbacks would be nice...promise I won't bite =)

*Sigh* hear that? that's relief for ya, my roomie made it back to the U.S. unscathed and I could finally enjoy my vacation in NY on Friday, I'm telling you you gotta have faith, God always comes through and so far my track record is pretty good and I don't want to be so cocky and jinx it oh well que sera sera. Nino spent the weekend here in DC we took him out saturday, we did the usual touristy suff like go to the White House, The Mall, Monuments and we made him walk, since we don't have a car he was forced to walk, it was good though because we had an excuse to pig out, and pig out we did it was a weekend of dust, heat and food kinda reminds me of the Philippines hehehehe...Today's hump day Thursday is Independence Day and I think we might take Friday off too, they haven't made the annoucement yet but they said that it was pretty sure, I guess they don't want us to make plans that's why they're all hush hush stupd government people. Hmmm..whatelse? I'm just trying to get through the day, I still have 3 more hours to go and I'm not looking forward to walking home, it's an oven out there it's like 95 degrees but the heat index is like 105! man I just have to leave the apartment at 7 then get a chance to cool off before going back to Virginia, I'm from the tropics but this is too much at least there in the PI I have a car and even if I get stuck in traffic I still have AC, *sigh* well summer time is here finally.

Argh! it's me again griping about the whole roommate thing, now word from her and I'm forced to pay the rent in full!! I tapped into my swiss bank account a.k.a. my savings so that I could pay it. Oh well, I hope that she made it or else...Nino is coming tomorrow!! I'm so excited, we're picking him up from Reagan at 1 pm I still have to do a lot of stuff like pack and try cleaning the apartment I also need to pick up the aero bed from my aunt's place, because up to now I still don't have a bed, I can't afford it (but I can afford to go to NY for the weekend) a girl just have to know how to prioritize and so far having fun and being with my friends is on top of my list instead of a buying stupid bed heheheheheh bad nikki

Well, well it's been a while ince I've updated, my roomie is currently in Canada, getting her G4 visa from the American consulate there so now that I've got the covered let me give a sigh of relief *sigh* and the only thing that we're waiting now is that could she come back to DC in time, which I have a feeling that she might hmmm...so far my instincts are correct, so I'll think I'll go with that. I'm currently broke, and my friend from Michigan is coming to visit us on Saturday (then we'll be heading off to NY on the 4th of July weekend) and that means tapping my savings for some spending money and using my trusty old visa, this will set me back for like a couple of months, but hey we're only young once and it's just money right?? uh? right? *sigh* I'm just trying to convice myself oh well it's working *grins*

So the good news is I got the apartment, we already signed the lease and paid the first month's rent, me and my roommate were already discussing what to do with the decorations and stuff, how to make our place look more than a a dorm room but a cozy apartment, and then I got the bad news. She called me last night and told me if I knew anyone from the Canadian Embassy or the State Department, apparently she was denied a Canadian visa (she needs to go out to Canada so that could issue her a G4 visa), so now everything is in limbo and I could end up roommate-less and penniless hmmm..why does it always happen to me???? I know it was too good to be true...well weird thing is if confronted with this dilemma I would curse and whine and be a big baby, well that was then, now I feel calm, cool and composed well maybe because it really hasn't hit me (i might start to panic once July hits and she's still visa-less), I just feel that if it's bound to happen it's bound to happen, I really couldn't do anything about it it wouldn't also do me any good if I run around panicking I would just end up stressed out which I don't want to I'm pretty sure that everything will work out for the best. Just gotta have a little faith

Ack! I'm really stressed out right now, last Tuesday I went ot look at this place in DC, the location was nie it was near to the metro, restaurants and the church it was/is perfect and to top it all off I have a roommate so the cost of living alone will no longer be in an issue. However they still ned to verify my employment, and requested a letter from our HR department, anyhoo I asked the person in charge of that if she could make me one, and she sid okay--that was yesterday and today she is out sick and the manager of the apartment building called me up and asked me about the letter because they have to make a decision and that my roommate already faxed hers, so now I have up to 6 pm to submit it to them. You don't know how it is here in the office a simple letter could take like 1 week to finish all the red tape you have to go through, all the incompetent people you have to deal with. It's just one lousy, stinking letter! so you know what I did, I wrote it myself and know I'm hoping that our supervisor will sign it or that if there are any corrections needed to be made, I would be informed a.s.a.p so that I would be able to make any changes and fax it. It's sooooo frustrating!!!! sometimes I just want to scream at them, no wonder employee morale is very low and that people here at the office are not motivated to work this sucks ass! argh!!!!!! I'm hoping that I could beat the deadline or else I would have to forfeit the place why oh why did it have to happen to me??? I know it's a pretty shallow thing to be upset with but I've had it up to here with this people, they always do this to me I feel like I've been shortchanged oh well don't blame me if I slack off work I'm just unmotivated...

Man we should have long weekends makes me feel rejuvinated to go back to work (yeah right)...I spent my Memorial Day Weekend doing some laundry, eating a lot of pizza and boating. Sunday we had a picnic at Pohick Bay in Lorton, VA typical Filipino party tons of people and tons of food the weather was perfect also, it's just one of those days that makes you wan to scream "I love life!". Monday I just stayed at home and catched up on sleazy talk shows, I couldn't stand watching some of them (well maybe I flipped back and forth I was a bit curious), where do they get these people? Anyway, me and friend we're talking about taking some classes in the local community college, and I got really excited I never realized how much I missed school and never imaginedthat I could miss school this much, I guess being stuck in a job that does not really require a lot of brain power makes you thirst for knowledge and it also does not help that when I get home from work I plop myself on the couch and watch TV. My parents say I always talk about going back to school but don't do anything about it I'm not getting younger and I believe now is the time to act on it, I'm all talk no action. I'm taking control of my life.

I just read my post and i sound really pathetic..and dumb..pretentious too oh well like anybody reads this anyway

Bored out of mind here at work, nothing to do it's just been so slow, I've come to a point that I just get up in the morning and ride the subway and come here to surf the web it's not helping me develop at all, I wish I could put all this "extra time" into good use instead of staring at the monitor for 8 hours a day. So so bored...bored of being bored....
An idle mind breeds idle thoughts..Boredom Kills...

I'm trying to call a friend of mine in Michigan, he keeps giving me these numbers that are either disconnected or is no longer in service hmmm..is he trying to tell me something?

My apartment hunting last Saturday was unsuccessful, I mean we did see some really awesome places but they were too expensive for me and my friend. I guess one option would be for me to just live alone and rent out a studio or a basement or something, since my friend could not make up her mind whether or not she will give up her place and also she still has to consider her roommate, it's getting complicated and I think for my peace of mind as well as theirs, living alone would be an option. Being alone would not be that bad, right now I'm practically living by myself since my roommate is either over at her bf's place or just sleeping for 24 hours straight. Oh well whatever will be will be. Anyhoo, work is still the same I'm still counting the minutes it's been pretty slow, it's becasue the students are all having their summer vacations and also the deadline for Fall 2002 is over, it will pick up again in August (argh!). Basically right now I'm just getting paid to surf the net, so it's a win-win situation. Well that's about it fr now..more updates later...

Oh well time to update again, is it May already? man the month went by so fast. I'm at work right now been working like a dog the entire morning and now I'm stuck with nothing to do, I have an hour more to go before I leave and meet up with my friends in Georgetown. I'm still looking for a place to move in to my lease will end soon and so far no leads, some are just too expensive for my budget I'm looking for an apartment that is near the metro so that i won't have to drive to work or take the bus, the housing market her is so competitive and I'm hoping that I could find a place before getting kicked out from my apartment. Anywayse, last weekend was okay I just stayed at home the weather was so nice so I just chilled at my balcony with a really good book and excellent music, life couldn't get any better than that..i think