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In less than one week I'll be flying off to California! Gosh I'm so happy. Work is okay I mean work is work it becomes a routine for me, there is no real challenge I sometimes feel that college really did not help me at all, I'm afraid to admit to myself that I made a bad decision, taking up another major, a major that I thought at that time was perfect for me. I guess I was too scared to take a risk or I was just too impulsive, I wanted to be "cool" and I wanted to live the high life so to speak so I took up Marketing, and now I'm in a job which is not even related to it, in fact it is the exact opposite and the only thing that keeps me going is the reality that I'm independent and that I know what I want now. I want to be a Teacher.

My mom is coming to visit me!!!!!!!!!! woo-hoo~ man I'm so excited she couldn't come here in a better time. I'm just feeling a little depressed right now actually I've been in this deep funk for almost a month now, call it PMS call it the winter blues but I'm not feeling any better. My roommate calls it my isolation mood. There are days that I would just stare in front of the TV and would burst into tears for no apparent reason or I would just lie on my bed and just think about the reasons why being alone sucks. Sometimes being strong can be a weakness, I am guilty of that. I don't like asking people for help, I don't want people to see me cry , I don't want people to know what I feel, I want them to see me as someone who is independent and strong willed, I want them to take the first step, I want them to make the first move. I think I'm strong but I'm not I'm a very very weak person I'm an eighty year old woman trapped in a 21 year old's body

Another day another dollar, I'm so bored here at work our network is acting up that's why I can't do any work (hehehe excuses excuses)..There's a scarlet fever outbreak here in our office apparently a co-worker of mine contracted it when he went to Indonesia, he looked like crap when he was sick and the sad thing was he was still working that is why all of us were exposed to it and so far there are around 4 people who are sick right now and frankly i'm kinda feeling woozy right now which i presume is not a good sign...hmmm..nothing to report except that..better take my vitamins!

Anywayse it's October already and the leaves are starting to fall, time sure flies and sometimes i'm scared that one day I would wake up and I would still be doing the same stuff I'm doing right now except that I'll be old and wrinkly. It's been a busy month for me I mean September was a blur,went to chicago, watched the Weezer conert (which was awesome btw), I have a new niece named Kylie who looks adorable. I'll be taking my vacation in march so that I could take advantage of the one month allowed to us employees and I can't wait it's been almost two years since I've been home and I'm really excited the once so familiar sights and sounds are such a distant memory that I have to replay them over and over again at night so that I won't forget. *I wish I was homewardbound*

Anywayse it's October already and the leaves are starting to fall, time sure flies and sometimes i'm scared that one day I would wake up and I would still be doing the same stuff I'm doing right now except that I'll be old and wrinkly. It's been a busy month for me I mean September was a blur,went to chicago, watched the Weezer conert (which was awesome btw), I have a new niece named Kylie who looks adorable. I'll be taking my vacation in march so that I could take advantage of the one month allowed to us employees and I can't wait it's been almost two years since I've been home and I'm really excited the once so familiar sights and sounds are such a distant memory that I have to replay them over and over again at night so that I won't forget. *I wish I was homewardbound*

I wrote a blog last tuesday and it was not posted..ARGH!! *frustrated* I can't win!!!

It's been along while since I've last updated my weblog...i've been busy with work and stuff. I'm going to Chicago today and I'm quite excited I've never been there before so I'm hoping it's going to be fun. I don't know but lately i've been feeling kind of depressed I guess it's because my closest friends are in a relationship of some sorts and I just can't help but feel left out. I miss the feeling of being with someone. *Sigh* oh well I'd get going before I totally ruin another weekend

We went to a concert last monday nite..which one?? am not telling you!! heheheh and if I do I might have to kill you anywyase what can I say, I'm completely deaf on my right ear the screaming was horrible but worth it. The concert was sooo entertaining I mean I don't know half of the songs they sang but between the light show and the props it was all good my friends and I had a blast even if we were soaking wet from the rain it was an experience worth sharing. Another highlight of my week (so far) is the first meal we cooked in our apartment, yes I cooked and not just the one where you add water and cover for 3 minutes I cooked adobo from scratch hehehehe it's amazing and I'm quite excited about it it's a little weird (i mean the taste)but it looked and smelled like adobo and that's a start right?? It's sooo good to have real food in our fridge right now, we've been eating corndogs this past week, actually we've been eating pizza and corndogs, it's a healthy diet and for lunch I usually have ramen noodles, it has veggies in it..hmmm..talk about nutritious. I guess I'm just lazy when it comes to cooking..hmm..whatelse? that's about it it's 5 already and I'm dying to get out of the office..ta ta

It's Friday! yey! i'm so bored here at work i have tons of stuff to do but i just feel like sleeping...my roommate was out the entire night and i couldn't sleep because my room was a friggin' oven so i just slept in her room where the airconditioner was on and in full force...I don't want to be a third wheel again! I'm always the odd man out so tonight i will have to say no and not tag along with my roommate and her "boyfriend" it will such a pain in butt to tag along you know? it's like you don't have anything to talk about because they're just engrossed with one another argh!! frustrating

It's Friday! yey! i'm so bored here at work i have tons of stuff to do but i just feel like sleeping...my roommate was out the entire night and i couldn't sleep because my room was a friggin' oven so i just slept in her room where the airconditioner was on and in full force...I don't want to be a third wheel again! I'm always the odd man out so tonight i will have to say no and not tag along with my roommate and her "boyfriend" it will such a pain in butt to tag along you know? it's like you don't have anything to talk about because they're just engrossed with one another argh!! frustrating