a confession of some sort...

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last night, in the dark i watched a movie that i have been dying to watch for a long time. i was lucky enough to find it online and even though i had to wake up early the next day i just had to watch it. the cinematic masterpiece i searched fervently for was the 80's gem dear heart. yes, dear heart the movie every sharonian (and for my case closet sharonian) should watch. the story is about a girl, april (or EP-REL as eddie garcia would pronounce it) a rich girl with a very protective father and a young man named jimmy who is the bastard son of a mining tycoon ( i always wanted to write "a bastard son of a mining tycoon", sounds very grown up). basically the storyline is so predictable that you would know what was going to happen just by watching the opening montage (and that was sharon riding a horse in baguio).

girl meets boy, girl does not like boy, girl and boy bicker (in taglish...."i'll make palo your head" blah blah blah), girl and boy fall in love, *cue montage* with girl and boy chasing each other on the beach, girl wearing jeans while swimming, father of girl is against the relationship, girl and boy got stranded in the mountains, girl's dad calls police, girl got grounded does not want to eat, boy was thrown in jail, boy's dad finally acknowledges his son, bails him out, girl's dad finally realized what an ass he was, says sorry to girl, throws a lavish 16th birthday party for daughter, makes a cheesy speech something about a golden girl in a golden cage (he lost me after the golden cage), boy appears in a tuxedo asks girl to dance, they hug. the end.

the reason why i love watching 80s tagalog movies it's over the top. it oozes with melodrama, cheese, bad hair and make up. i love the dialogue with corny english phrases scattered in it (your ANG-KEL perised in a plen kras). i love how easy things work out for the characters, the reversal of fortunes. i love how it reminds me of lazy summer days and in some weird way bananacue and turon.

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naptime, april 2008

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"But if you left it up to me
Everyday would be
A holiday from real
We'd waste our weeks
Beneath the sun
We'd lie and tell our friends
It's so much fun out here
When it's all over
I'll come back for another year"

Holiday from Real, Jack's Mannequin

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everything i know i learned from the playground

getty museum, los angeles

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love according to amanda, 4 years old:
"when you get married, make sure it's with someone you love, not like"

marriage according to andrew, 5 years old:
"i want to get married so that i can get a ring" i want to get married 10 times so that i can get 10 rings"

parents according to wilbert, 4 years old:
"i am sometimes scared of my dad because i sometimes think he's a girl"

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a day in the life of...

palace of fine arts
san francisco

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discovered books again. it's like seeing a very dear and old friend.


a day in the life of...:

erika *holding up a picture of tulips*
me: those are tulips
erika: tulips
me: yes tulips have you seen these in the garden?
erika: yes i have tulips at home, they are red
me: really?
erika: yes (then she put her hand on her mouth, pretending like she is holding something) tulips (rubbing her mouth) i have a red one
me *puzzled look*
erika: tulips (still doing that action) i have a red one
*ding*
me: ooooooooohhhhhh erika tulips are flowers, what you put on your lips is called LIPSTICK
erika: *nods* yes tulips *and goes away*

it took me a while to figure out why she associated tulips with lipstick and then i realize ahhh tu-LIPS!

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Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

chasing pavements, adele

life is like a box of jelly beans...you wonder who the heck
thought that jalapeno would be a nice addition to an otherwise
great bunch.

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current addiction: this korean tv/reality show

yesterday i saw one of the saddest things i have ever seen, 2 middle aged women drunk at 8:00 pm crossing a busy intersection. what is more sadder than 2 women trying desperately to hold on to their inner queen bee, sorority 20 year old selves? knowing that they have a much exciting social life than a 28 year old single girl.

summer is almost over so that means that school is starting *hooray* -- can you tell that i am being sarcastic? don't get me wrong i love my children, i love teaching however, it's the constant "ms. A. MW is not my friend!" or "Ms. A, she hit me!" or *blag* WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!" that drains me of all my energy. with all the constant negotiations and peace talks i have to do all through out the day i should be able to work for the united nations. cleaning up vomit, pee and the dreaded number 2 has been added to my job description and possibly my resume. basically what i am trying to say is that whoever is looking for a peace negotiator that can sanitize and clean up vomit, pee and the dreaded number 2 i am the girl for that job.

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"Hey remember that time when my favorite colors were pink and green? Hey remember that month when I only ate boxes of tangerines? So cheap and juicy, tangerines...
That Time, Regina Spektor

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got carried away...

december 2007
christmas presents for my first montessori class

"everyone has a car, people who don't have cars are dead"
this quote is courtesy of my very outspoken 4 year old E in class today.

one time 4 year old M asked me "ms. a why are you alone?" and as if it was not clear enough he had a follow-up question "i mean why don't you have a kid?" i wanted to answer him, my dear boy it's because i am too busy watching my dramas instead of going out and meeting other people and also the stability that i am praying for is still an illusion, so please don't ever ask me that question again because it seems that everyone and their mother is asking me the same thing but instead i replied: "M, do you want to have a lesson?" distraction, it always works.

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Well actually I've got friends who (la la lie)
Will help me pull through (la la la lie la la la lie)
The spaceman that can't get high
I'm coming back to my girl by July
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Jack's Mannequin, La La Lie

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ms. A. according to Curtis
04/18/2008
(Yes, my head is that big)

sentimental, that's what i feel today. looking at pictures taken 1, 3 even 5 years ago does not help either. it's weird seeing yourself grinning ear to ear with your arm around people who are now considered acquaintances instead of friends. it's sad to see the old place you used to call home, the old haunts you know so well are now just mega pixels and memories.

tired was what i felt yesterday. coming back from a weekend with my family playing rockband on wii, i needed another vacation to recover from the vacation.

tomorrow, maybe tomorrow would be a little bit better. if things go my way i might be even happy.

"When it's quiet, does she hear me? Jettisoned to the center of the storm And I'm thinking I Prefer not to be rescued"

Rescued, Jack's Mannequin