religion and the 4 year old mind

a little more and you can touch the sky

penang hill

2010

------

sofia (age 4) does the sign of the cross then she looks at the other children at her table and said that's the only thing God taught her.

religion and kids, that was my monday.

---

"Have I
ever told you before
I think you're beautiful when
you're sleeping?
I have faith you watch me in
my slumber, too.
If I'm
all that you're looking for,
tell me,
why is there a river streaming
down your face?
Sometimes makes me wonder
all about your
love.

After some time
it's something i find true. Love's
not a grave, it won't decay
on you.
Too many days I was afraid
of love."

-love, love, love

as tall as lions

re-discovery

saturday

just watched a documentary about nick drake on tv.

so now i am listening to nick drake while the rain goes "pitter patter" against the window

his music makes me want to take a walk in the rain, it reminds me of chilly october evenings

his songs makes me want to ride a bike

i am feeling nostalgic

----

penang, malaysia

dusk

2010

---

"why you leave me hanging on a star?

when you deem me so high"

"why you leave me sailing in a sea?

when you hear me so clear"

-hanging on a star, nick drake

positivity

phuket

2010

-----

never underestimate the power of kiddie germs. i learned that lesson the hard way on wednesday when i found myself with a temperature of 100 degrees.

overheard last week:

"i had a bagel with a lot of butter

you'll explode if you had that much butter"

salvador, age 4

"my dentist would be mad if i had that kind of breakfast"

sofia, age 4

while waiting for his ride, rex (age 4) looks up at the sky and told me that he loves rain because rain makes the flowers grow.

everyday i hear something new :)

christmas in the philippines -- i can't wait

have a nice weekend.

----

dependency

there is a fine line between chaos and stability and everyday we are treading on it

october 2010

-----

today's highlight: after reluctantly admitting to someone that i am so dependent on my gps and when i finally convinced myself that i can leave it at home and wean myself from it, i MISSED my exit (my biggest fear). but then after a short freak out i managed to find my way through the crazy downtown sacramento streets and made it home safe and sound. hooray for independence!!

---

constant rotation:

oh, la - ra ra riot

"I wouldn't say the word now but this is not what I meant,
For a woman that's fallen over head and ears
And still so warm, but I'm lonely too,
Suddenly she is still and says, "I hope that things will be better here."

Oh la we've got a lot to learn from each other,
We've got to stick together.
Oh la we've got a lot to learn from each other,
We've got to stick together"

it's automatic

this weekend:

i saw a car on fire

i spent most of the time driving and paying tolls on bridges

i had my quota for cheesecakes

i sang songs while driving over the speed limit

right now:

my tv is on mute while i am listening to MGMT's time to pretend

it seems like my neighbor upstairs is doing a construction music

my head hurts from watching french movies all afternoon

i am thinking of pancakes, eggs and bacon

tomorrow:

i will wake up and hit the snooze button twice

i will remember to look at the good in every situation

will be a good day...

------

2010

phuket

------

"This is our decision, to live fast and die young.
We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.
Yeah, it's overwhelming, but what else can we do.
Get jobs in offices, and wake up for the morning commute."

MGMT, time to pretend

affirmation

mental vacation

phuket, 2010

----

today was a good day and have a 4 year old boy with wild curly hair to thank.

yesterday i found myself questioning my career choice (i seem to do that a lot these days) but seeing a 4 year old just shaking with excitement in the possibility of counting a long chain of beads that are (according to him) is "BIGGER than you nicole, and it's BIGGER than the school" made me so happy that i totally forgot the funk that i was in, that is until another boy locked all the bathrooms from the inside just in time when another boy had to go really bad. i guess you can't have it all...

ra ra riot is my new love

-----

greetings from I Street

hello from another apartment, another address, another zip code

hello fall, summer was nice but it was getting old.

hello sweaters and tights, hello scarves and chilly mornings

hello new neighborhood, walking while listening to good music -- it's been a while since i did that and oh how i miss it

hello new routine, getting up early and trying not to doze off at 8:00 at night to no avail.

hello to listening to ra ra riot, discovery, pinback, kings of leon and mates of state while driving to work

hello feelings of inadequacies, hello to new children who, i hope someday will have a place in my heart.

hello to wishing for great things.

hello inspiration...

------

kuala lumpur

august 2010

----

Outside just killing time and making noise
And outside the daylight comes, the daylight goes and weightless
If its weightless it makes no stairways to stairs that go nowhere
and don’t dream, that is a dream it is what it seems

Climbing from over stimulated states to hearing
Cold radio and licenses plates but don’t dream,
That is a dream it is what it seems
That is a dream it is what it seems

Behind every desire is another one waiting to be liberated when the first ones sated

-weightless, nada surf